As a
Teenager
"I have always been an artist really. I have always
felt different, not necessarily because I am so different, no, I don’t
really know how to explain it. I had trouble fitting in at school. It was
few friends and being in a gang and all that. I went to a private school.
There were three different types of gangs, and if you wanted friends you
had to be in one of them. Those three groups were the popular and stupid
cheerleaders, or you had the nerds, the smart ones and I was always a
drama queen. I didn’t fit in any of those, Amy Lee say and get thoughtful
again. I couldn’t find anyone else that was like me. A lot of people
judged me and looked at me as a freak. " "I moved a lot during my
childhood and had trouble getting friends. I never fit in anywhere, and
had trouble getting in touch with other people Puberty isn’t exactly the
easiest part of your life. And on top of that I was alone all the time. I
had my art though. I took drama lessons in school, but art and active was
not a priority in our school. All the money went to sports and
cheerleading. I fought for new costumes for plays, but everything went to
something else. That made me care, and I got really pissed at the whole
thing. I didn’t care about anything. I did some things to not get like a
total outsider. I dressed as anonomsly as possible, and wanted just to
disappear in the crowd. But when I got home I got eccentric and had to get
out emotions. That’s when I painted, drew, wrote a lot, and also played
dress up."
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The
Nightmares
Amy talks about her struggles with her
dreams...." I suffered from them terribly from the time I was a small
child right up until I was 18. They were beyond frightening and very
twisted. The nightmares came in all forms but were usually about death,
destruction, twisted crazy people. I finally learned to stand up to them
and now I don't have them so much. I am not so insecure and vulnerable
anymore."
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